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Prologue: Ashore
03:30
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Flashing visions, nails in my chest.
Tao’s hummingbird is croaking in my head.
This place ought to make me feel home, my hideaway!
Isolation hurts the most in places of the heart!
I am the stain! I am the stain!
Insincere smiles, limp handshakes,
Vitreous eyes and clicking tongues.
To all you wise, to all you wise:
Stay scuttling in your fragile den, I’m headed for the open sea!
I am the stain! I am the stain!
I am leaving, forsaking the play.
No aim, no rudder, drifting away.
I am leaving, forsaking the play.
No aim no rudder, drifting away.
I am leaving, forsaking the play.
I am running before the wind.
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Escape
03:55
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Palpitation, I’m sweating. I’m shaking.
While the distance gets longer, my breath gets short.
Red skies in the rear view, black skies ahead.
The strokes get harder, I’m numbing out.
I’m running away. A leap in the dark.
I’m running, you stay and watch me escape!
Am I going forwards? Or do I just disappear?
Am I going forwards? Or do I just disappear?
Listening how the dusk scans the sea and sings its lullabies, like you did to me.
Sometimes running away is the best way to hide!
If a body catch a body… But who’s coming through the rye?
Sometimes running away is the best way to hide!
Gin a body catch a body… But who’s coming through the rye?
Who am I hiding from!
Who am I hiding from, If not myself?
Why did I leave it all behind?
Cause I always run away. I run away.
I run away to lose myself.
I run away. I run away.
I run away to get found.
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3. |
Repentance
04:34
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Out of the blue, on the high sea, with nothing to run from, no place to be.
If I am to die here all by myself, I’d rather be with you, confined but alive!
I`m broken by fear! I`m broken by fear!
I`m broken by fear! I`m broken by fear!
Bare hands against the sullen whims of the sea.
For hours! For hours!
For you! For me!
My tears cherish the deadly field of blue.
Gently pushing me further away.
With uptight fingers I’m lifting the cap.
No whimpers of pain, my repentance is warmth.
Slug after slug the belts straighten up.
It’s forlorn. It’s forlorn. It’s forlorn.
Slug after slug the belts straighten up.
I’m forlorn. I’m senseless.
With blurry vision I surrender to the liquid,
Escaping consciousness and enter the dream.
With blurry vision I surrender to the liquid,
Escaping consciousness into deep blue.
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Dream
03:23
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The dark curtain swept away my conscious mind.
I see the lights beyond the surface, beyond the mirror that’s all around me!
Now I see. Now I feel. Following lights into the dark!
Now I flee. Now I fall. I’m sinking deep, I won’t go back.
I don’t look back!
I cannot stay alone, far away.
I need your light to guide me home.
I cannot live this life alone.
I follow lights into the dark. Into the dark.
Now I’m close to you! And I close my eyes!
I am a part of you! You are my family!
I try and touch the light! I want a part of it!
I want it more and more! I dare to take it all!
I want to be a part of you!
I long to be a part of you!
The lights’ sweet caress
Cures my loneliness!
My Loneliness!
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5. |
Into Deep Blue
04:04
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I can’t remember how it came to this,
But I’m finally with you, all I ever longed for
Now the lights surround me wound around my chest.
They’re coming closer. I’m trapped in your embrace.
I’m trapped in your embrace.
I am a golden light just like you.
I tear scars into the dark.
Their arms spread out to me. They’re gonna drag me down.
And I can’t resist the wake of togetherness.
Searching a lifetime! Searching for you!
Searching a lifetime! Searching for you!
Searching a lifetime for something to keep me
In the bosom of my loved ones.
Trying to affiliate, to fit into their lives.
My eyes shut to the world beyond.
All my life I’ve struggled to find a place like this.
But now I’m here.
All my life I’ve struggled to find a place like this.
And now I’m here.
Now I’m here in this nightmare.
Dying alone.
This is the end!
This is the end!
I’m giving in to you.
There’s no hope left in this place.
They drag me down into deep blue.
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6. |
Apnea
01:20
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Leave me alone!
Get away from me!
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7. |
Awakening
02:03
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I am alive
Vomiting ghosts
A stunted prisoner
But I am alive
Awaken from a dream
In my cold lonely cage
No hope, no bettering
But I am alive!
When there’s nothing around me,
How may see?
How may I see?
The lights that guide me home?
When everything is black?
How may I hear?
The sounds that guide me home?
When everything is black?
How may I see or hear?
Where are the lights, where are the lights?
Everything is black.
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Storm
01:56
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Exposed and Isolated,
Just me and the dead wood,
The ferryman’s apprentice.
No land in sight!
Baleful closeness,
Stinging rain,
Biting wind,
This is the end!
As I enter my grotty grave,
I accept my fate.
No last resource. No foe to fight.
I refuse the last gasp of my life.
This is no lucid dream,
This is my death!
I’m going down!
I’m gonna drown!
This is reality!
This is reality!
This is reality!
This is reality!
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9. |
The Odyssey
02:18
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Finally dying,
Out in the blue field of broken hope
Just pictures and thoughts
Oh, you and I used to be we.
Will you still know my name?
Or the color of my eyes?
Will you look past these scars?
And remember my face?
I will return.
I can see.
I am blind.
I am deaf.
I’m alive.
Heading back,
The Odyssey!
Heading back,
The Odyssey!
Heading back,
The Odyssey!
I’m going all the way back!
Heading back, the Odyssey!
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10. |
Catharsis
01:57
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Days turned into weeks,
Nights turned into years,
But guess who’s leaving all this brooding shit behind!?
In facing death I noticed what I left behind!
What I left behind!
I’m coming back!
I’m going home!
I’m coming back!
I’m coming back!
Did they notice?
Or even miss me?
I’ve found my part.
I’ve found my part.
I must be the prodigal son.
The day turned into the night,
But the night came to an end.
All I ever wanted
Was what I’ve left behind.
I can’t be wrong! I can’t be wrong! I can’t be wrong!
Again.
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11. |
Epilogue: Home No More
05:12
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Same sun, same cornfields, same noises, no names, no names.
Same trees, same seas. Is this reality? Is this reality?
No one remembers. Proceed! Proceed! A fucking libertine is the last thing we need!
No one remembers. Proceed! Proceed! A fucking libertine is the last thing we need!
Home no more! Home no more! Ahhhh!
Home no more! Home no more! Home no more!
I wriggle like a blind worm through the terracotta army.
Every jostle means murder, every edge is a motive.
I cannot live in your sobriety.
I cannot leave it all behind.
I rather stay outside all by myself
Than to be one of your kind!
I cannot live in your sobriety.
I cannot leave it all behind.
I rather stay outside all by myself
Than to be one of your kind!
I cannot live in your sobriety.
I cannot leave it all behind.
I rather stay heartbroken all by myself
Than to be one of your kind!
I cannot live in your sobriety.
I cannot leave it all behind.
I rather stay fucked up all by myself
Than to be one of your kind!
I cannot live in your sobriety.
I cannot leave it all behind.
I rather stay outside all by myself
Than to be one of your kind!
I am alive!
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